4 days and counting. And here I am again considering whether or not I even want to attempt Nano this year…. It’s not that I don’t want to write. Or that I don’t have plenty of ideas of stories to start on (or finish). I’ve just been in a slump lately in regards to my writing. Absolute zero motivation or inspiration.
I try to take a step back from my bigger projects and work on something different. Something more fun. Some random short story or something completely off the wall. And then a paragraph or two in, I just lose interest.
Glad to know I’m not the only one, though… I Googled “should I do Nanowrimo this year?”, and one of the first links I clicked on goes into a rant about how it’s just not worth it, or how it promotes all the wrong things about writing – just getting some words (a very specific number of words) on paper, almost regardless of anything else, including quality.
And the next link I found (here) was rather insightful… Somewhat more neutral, it took the approach of “you should do it, but…”. And it reminded me of exactly why I didn’t finish last year. November is a shitty month to try to accomplish something like this. The holidays alone make it feel like a short month unless you’re sitting in the office, counting the hours til your vacation kicks in. And last year, I changed jobs in the middle of the month, which just threw a monkey-wrench into the whole plan.
Thankfully (or hopefully), that shouldn’t happen this year, but I can’t help but stress. Because all the same problems exist this year. Because of my work schedule, I could write in my downtime at work. But sitting behind a computer for 8 hours a day, especially when I’m programming with Java for the majority of that time, the last thing I want to do is look at a computer screen for another moment longer. Which is also my downside at night.
By the time I get the girls to bed most nights, it’s 9 or 10 o’clock. And I’m not opposed to burning the midnight oil to make progress, but when I have to be up at the crack of dawn the next day for work, starting something as mentally-intensive as writing a novel that late doesn’t really appeal to me. When I did last year, I didn’t get to bed til midnight or 1am most days. That makes for a loooong day after.
Then it’s, “Oh, I’ll just get some rest and skip tonight,” and like my usual gym workout plans, a week goes by, and I’m still sitting there not making progress like the piece of shit that I am.
Anyway, I’m done complaining and feeling sorry for myself now. Gonna try to get pumped-up over the weekend so I can hit the floor running November 1st.
If nothing else, maybe the sugar high from poaching the best candy from my kids’ Halloween stashes will help power me through the first week!
Happy Halloween folks, and good luck fellow Nano’ers!